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Every night, I would lie on my bed. Closing my eyes, I would replay the dumb thing I happened to do that day. Why did the waitress have to ask what KIND of fries I wanted? I just wanted fries. My family probably thought I never went out to eat before. And why did I have to stutter during my job interview? And what made me think to eat a garlic heavy meal right before going to it? Just to prevent myself from cringing, I would blare some classical music on my radio. I knew I couldn’t continue living like this, but no, I, of course, didn’t think of doing anything about it. Instead, I decided that I couldn’t continue living at all. I picked up a bottle of medicine from my counter. Shutting my eyes, I poured the content into my mouth. One by one, I felt all of my humiliation fading away. Suddenly, I knew I wasn’t ready for what I had done. How could I just give up?I sat down against the wall and cried for a good ten minutes. I looked at my hand to remind myself of what I had just done, and I couldn’t help but chuckle. I had taken four of my daughter’s Dinosaur Gummy Bear Vitamins. Maybe, in the end, your biggest flaw, like in this case, not being the sharpest tool in the shed, can really save you. Maybe, if we just live life out, we learn not how to get along with society but rather with ourselves.

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